Right here, right now
I have been listening to the Laura Marling CD that mysteriously appeared in the mail. I love the music, but I must say, the lyrics are another story, and I am not one of those people who can easily separate the two. I haven’t sat down and read them in depth yet, but there seems to be a darkness and poison in them that I don’t enjoy. She’s a fantastic musician, especially given her age, but I feel like I am getting some of that angsty melodrama that is being a 21-year-old.
I’ve also been listening to the new Sara Groves, with lyrics so full of grace and forgiveness and hope, and I know which headspace I’d rather end up in. There is something so much healthier in the place she’s singing from - and that’s not a cheesy “life is always awesome” space, but a place of reminders of truth and hope and what love really is in the middle of weakness and ordinary life.
On the album she has included a little “ditty” of an unfinished song. She comments on this song about how we’re often waiting for that ideal scenario in which we could serve God or love others better, or fulfil who we really are ... when the truth is, right here, right now, is the place God wants us to serve him from. This little 48 second ditty goes:
I’m tired of blaming everybody else
I’m sorry if I’ve blamed you
I have everything I need to be myself
I have what I need to love you
There’s no way to brace myself
There’s no way to sort it all out
What you need from me I can do it right now
I can do it right now
What you need from me I can do right now
What you want from me I can do right now
What you want from me I can do it right now
I can do it right now